Yesterday I made a huge realization. I am very judgmental when it comes to people I love. I know that this is because I want the best for them and I set high expectations for the people that I keep in my life. However, is it truly fair? I feel as if it might be the reason that distance is growing between me and these said people.
I need to learn to live by the quote above or Mark 5:36 "Just Believe."
Maybe what I think is stupid or a bad choice makes sense for their life. But how do you let go of that feeling like they are messing up - again?!
For a while now, mostly since mom got sick, I have been living with this feeling that I had to fix everything. The family is falling apart? No problem, I will fix it. Someone screwed up? No problem, I will fix it. Someone is unhappy? No problem, I got it. But when I moved to Tennessee - it was with the intention that I would be physically far enough away that I couldn't fix it. And I had the realization last year that I shouldn't have to fix it. Right? I mean I am 25 and doing my thing.
But how do I let go of that feeling that things are going wrong? Or more importantly - the judgment of other people's opinions. I don't really have the urge to fix things but just to let that person know that I think they are making a HUGE mistake or judging their character based on those decisions.
What a daily thought. I will continue to make myself a better person and be nicer to the people I love.
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